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its 3am...
i jsut watch pneapple expess, while eating mcfillet from donalds...
lol... i cudnt stop laughing... its very hilarious film :D
i had a very boring day... spent all time studying the damn afs book:(
meanwhile i just downloaded the joey show :D thnks the internet,, the shows isnt as good as the friends but its fine...
btw im looking for superntural s4, e7.. i hve to watch it by tomorrow, its on torrent now but itll take alot oftime and with so many leeches... i hate it tht way :D so il go to my mate, an hour drive away, to get it and some other stuff..... he's monitoring a cybercafe and have access to to all there files :P alot of free stuff there, be it porn,movies or any software :D:D

i just watchd the ppl added on msn space....(kinda look like bloging space i use to do at livejournal) i saw her profile and photos... its like 2 years old but she look lovely, i mean it LOVELY... i envy kashif now :( that was able to go to aus for college (imean why cudnt i be the one to be there is nsw... stupid luck...)

to be honest, its so distorted.... i have many things to do in life and i want to do thm but i cant.... like i wanted to travel all around the world, make a change, workout... but not only im SOO lazy, i lack the luck :S .... come on... atleast im happpy im still 140lbs :D, traveled to few palces like brisbane and zurich.... but last thing... make a change... thts something i m thinkin how to... i want to help my ppl, help my country get out of this shit crap... but how.... ??

its too soon for a guy of my age .... maybe i should make a carrier out of me and thn work out on this... shudnt i??

most imp of all,
btw... i totally screwed up my CFA schedule... i shud have fininsed 5 books by now and im done with only 2 :@ damn damn damn me..
i have got like 7 chps of this book and i dont know how im gonna do it...
screw me..... lmao.. i m so fucked up!
tomorrow first thing im gonna do after waking up is study.... ofcourse after a bath and meal :D
plz plz pray for me... that i get it done!
im scheduled to appear in dec 08 on 7th, the first sunday :S:S:S:S
and i so wanna work it out

btw i didnt posted for soo long... but i wantd today to jot my feelings! after so long... its nice to say things i cant to anyone, it keep its to itself :)
its sure hot today,,, and im happy becuz this is last week of my boring.... since i missed my flight to australia.. im grounded to home... and just bored to death.. all i do is sit infront of pc, study cfa or playing joggs... the routine has become boring to death :D

Jun. 4th, 2008

Hhiiiii........... ihad been confused.... time is running slow and fast at both same time!! i think i need help :S but i have to go on my own.. cuz no one can help me on this!!
(p.s. every passing day imreally getting pissed at dad... he is completely ignoring me and i m getting frustrated more at my brothers attitude, he is like never have a time for me when i need him and he can ask for any favor anytime, wtf?)
If you had the chance to go crazy and completely overhaul your appearance, what would you do? Or: Recount a remarkable incident involving insects.

i wud grow my hair to shoulders (which im strying to), increase my resistance and stamina so that i can push myself more .. and try to date hesh :P

Writer's Block: Some words to live by...

What words do you find wise enough to live by?

good things happens to those who work for them to happen :)


rather then expecting some angel to come and solve every problem of our life, be that angel yourself for someone...

Jun. 2nd, 2008

today was a good day :D (except for frequent power disruptions at the eletricity supply in our area :S) lol.. yesterday we went to beach with my family.... it was fun :D but you know how stupid im.... i wored the traditional clothes(which are no way suitable for swimming) and i ruined them :) i sat on the camel :S lol got all covered with sand and when we came back home... i was all tired... so much that i drank half litre of milk at one time :D

hey im getting good at counter strike :D now i go on undeafeated untill more then 20 kills straight :D...

as for today... i woke up at 11, first time in life i had cereal and milk :D felt like im in hospital or something!! actually im trying to limit my consumption of food.. kinda conservative type im :) anyway.. i meet today a very very old friend of mine whom i meet like 8 years ago.. she is now a airhostess :) and currently she was in malaysia!! well she is returning and i m hoping to see her by 10th of this month!

2ndly clara popped up out of nowhere :D we had a long nice and funnny talk and best thing abt her is she is really good at talk..:D wish her all the best in life :)its always nice to talk to her.. ( ireally it wud remain same always)

1 thing i dont know why, everysingle women i met at icq, they all turned out to be quite aged from me :D like clara 31, kate 32, molly in33's .... lol!! i began to assume i might not end up with any granny untill my marriage =D lets hope not for sake of my unborn cute children :D

at evening i went to the smoke zone :D it was soo fun.. execept the Air conditioner was not working :S still we had fun and im officially the best quality porn king of the group :d lol! i mean the mags movies and scenes i recommend, everybody loves them... nasty hanhh... thts little bit you know curosity of age... and im thinking to aviod it lol... (i know i wont be able to) lol.. p.s. we played poker and you know wht.. i lost all the time :D

mom tried to copy the grilled chicken from nandos and amazingly to my ratings they were 8.4/10... peri rice and fries were exact copy in looks and taste... chicken was also a brilliant copy but not equalent to wht they serve at restaurent but they were awesome :Danyway... juicy, spicy ummmmm!! i ate soo much tht now im feeling like full to mouth :D

as for CFA yayyyy...the corporate finance and portfolio management book will end tomorrow.. last 15 pages left plus complete revision of whole book... tomorrow i will do it... thn i'lll start the analysis of financial statements or analysis of fix/variale income instruments... you know bonds and stocks...

i just wish i should be able to clear 1st part of CFA helding on 8 dec 2008.. if i do it, i can get start on my own :D with initial pay equalent to 800$ - $1000 per month... i m really looking forward to for it... although im not at all trying to study...:( i just hate studying and just its so boring..and studying alone and this is equalent to masters level while i still havent cleared by bachelors ...

anyway im going to play deathmatch at counter strike again :P cuz im free now and nothing to do!! so cya later!!! muahh!! :)
Tears are forming in your eyes,
a storm is warning in the skies,
the end of the world it seems,
you bend down and you fall on your knees,
well get back on your feet ,yeah,
don't look away, don't run away,
baby it's only life,
don't lose your faith,don't run away,
it's only life.
you were always playing hard,
never could let down your guard,
you can't win, if you never give in,
to that voice within, saying pick up your chin,
baby let go of it , yeah,
don't look away, don't run away ,
baby, it's only life.
don't lose your faith, don't run away,
baby it's only life.(repeat)
take your hesitance, and your self defense,
leave them behind, it's only life,
don't be so afraid of facing every day,
just take your time, it's only life,
i'll be your stepping stone, don't be so alone,
just hold on tight,it's only life,
oh..don't look away, don't run away,
baby it's only life,
don't lose your faith, don't run away, baby, it's only life (repeat),
it's only life, it's only life,
don't look away...

May. 28th, 2008

still im not sure where im going!! i think i might need counselling on this.. but its stupid if i wont solve out this myself! i mean something is bothering me and i dont know what!! no idea, its just all the frustration, anger and stubborness has found there way out of me these days

btw thts the picture of my cute lillte nephew:) covered his face with cherry.. acctually i planned to snap him while he looks like little red indian :P lol... look at the innocence! he looks just like me!

May. 26th, 2008

*Sigh* Hey life... how had you been? still busy in hurting people,pissing off others,bringing troubles to theworld as well as on the other hand hapiness, love, joy,smile =) its been a whilke since i talked to you.. last time it was months ago.. i thought i might drop by and talk abt you here for little while :)

actually i dont want to complain abt you despite of the fact tht you had been alot bitchy this whole month of may(ofcourse ididnt got an A i was expecting in law, tht bastard teacher knew i was the guy who never was in his class :D but he always pretend he didnt cared), dads been around pissing me off with his BOSSING atttitude(which i simply hate), i cant focus myself on mentally preparing myself for studying porfolio management(just 2 reading left and i have to fin it by end of this month), blahblah balh :)

you see even i don want to but i cant stop it..imhere to say sorry!!! inspite of all, i never realized how lucky im because i expanded my vision to rest of reality, i m much much better then wht should i say, more than 100,000,000 people around the globe who cant earn more then $2 a day... isnt tht a blessing,? i m better than millions of people around the world who had one or another defect in body in shape of physical deformity or disease...:) seriously if i started listing, it wont end soon... just to say, i have mroe things to thank for then to cry on!! :) thanks you lord almighty, for everything! i cant be more luckier!!

i owe my smiles to many people in the world... my family, friends other people who dont even know me or people i know only!!

i met this girl clara :D she turned out 2 be quite funny... we had nice long talk and some wildtalk too:P shetalked like a teenager but she is 32 lol!!! well it was fun with her!!!

i m now listening to beautiful world by collin hays and its a lovely song.. :) btw i recommened to hear embyronic journey by jefferson airplane... its quite oldsong (1967) instrumental one but its soo sothing... :) and becuz it was played at the end of friends last episode which made me so sad :( that these characters wont be able to be seen again in action,i miss them alot !

anyway i got to go dear!! nice talking to you! bye


May. 20th, 2008

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YCw9zo0CAZU - brilliant movie, great actor and beautiful sound track. No wonder it won 5 oscars. to me its stilll the BEST movie ever... the chemistry is awesome